(If you’re easily ‘cheezzed-out’, stop right here and close the window. This is my drama, and you cannot do anything about it)

 

            It’s paradoxical, but the only thing constant in this world is CHANGE. Everything changes; from rocks to animals; plants to concrete structures. Everything changes. There are no exceptions.

 

Sis dear: let’s talk about this. Yes, since my labs came into my life, I’ll admit that I’ve changed. But then dear, all changes are mostly for the better.

 
As I’ve told you, you just got used to the fact that I was always sweet to you. Dear, I have nothing against you being jealous of her. I completely understand. But then, you were taking it alright the first couple of years; why breakdown now? And as I’ve told you, it’s because it’s been ages since we last talked to each other. I also understand that you’re just looking out for me. I do appreciate that. It’s just that, you haven’t heard my part of the story yet. I wish we could talk about this… don’t shut me down right away…

 

Oh, and dear, she’s not ‘princesa’ anymore. (read “princesa” entry)

 

 

 

My labs: still mad at me? Dear, it wasn’t really personal. I was just talking about the topic that we were talking about that night. It was just a misunderstanding. Am not blaming you though; I’ll take all the blame. I’m sorry.

 
Just take in mind dear that it was never my intention to hurt you. NEVER. You know that. You know that I’m just always looking out for you. And everything I do/I did; everything’s for you. All these things I do because I love you. So much for “no more leaving moments, ok?”… Miss you dear…

 

 

 
To the other people who think that I’ve changed: well, perhaps I did. But as I’ve said, everything’s for the better. Everything’s about ‘perception’. I’m just not the jolly, sweet, free-spirited person that I am as of late. But I assure you guys that I am still me.

Currently listening to: kami nAPO muna album
Currently feeling: indescribable

 

Call me crazy, call me dumb

But its just you that made the hurt numb

Every pain was worth taking,

I gave you my world, I gave you everything

 

I cannot be alone for I keep thinking about you,

So I think it would be better if you walk me through

I think that it’s better now that we’re far apart

Knowing that until in memoriam you still have my heart

 

It would be hard to find someone like you

It would be hard to find someone true

But pretty girl this I tell you,

I love you, yes I do

 

Pretty, gorgeous, sweet, & intelligent

Only a couple of words that could describe you

Why, oh why did God show me you?

Tell me why, oh tell me the truth

 

You’re the greatest thing that ever happened to me

Is that how lame my life is?

Nah, it just shows that

How wonderful life is with you

 

Just keep in mind

Princess of mine

You’re just too good to be true

I would never want to hurt you

 

 

Currently listening to: if i'm not in love with you- faith hill
Currently feeling: pensive

 

Love is like cooking. You create something from nothing; from complete strangers to insanely in love people; from dull and ordinary ingredients, to succulent and mouth-watering dishes. Yes, cooking is like love, without passion and dedication, your dish will just be bland.

 
When we do not watch over what we cook, we’ll end up over-cooking our dish. It would be either too charred or just plain inedible. If we go on rushing a dish for you prepared the needed ingredients late, you’ll end up with a raw, sordid, unpleasant dish.

 
Like love, cooking also has various styles. You can boil, fry, bake, roast, toast, flambé, sauté, stew, steam, etc. There are also various types of dishes that you could focus on: drinks, appetizers, entree, dessert, side dish, salad, sauces, or soups. Various ingredients to choose from: beef, pork, chicken, fish, fruits, dairy, rice, vegetables, etc.

 
Turn-up the heat if you want a little bit of action; add other ingredients to spice things up. Don’t forget to protect yourselves from bacteria like salmonella. Be sure every cookware you use is clean. And be sure to use the freshest of ingredients. And, when everything comes to a boil, you know that that is the culmination of the dish.

 
Cooking needs a lot of your attention. Cooking takes time; from the preparation, to the actual cooking per se. You have to incorporate all the ingredients together to achieve that delectable aroma. There is an order of adding the ingredients, you cannot rush to adding your beans if you haven’t sautéed your onions and garlic. You cannot add the oil last. You cannot cook sinigang in a sauté pan.

 
All the ingredients will then simmer so that they would be one.

 
Plate your labor-of-love. Take in consideration that presentation really is a plus factor.

 
And after all the hard work and labor, with a pinch of salt and a dash of pepper, it truly is, Heaven in a Plate.

 

Currently listening to: hey look at the sun - sitti
Currently feeling: hungry

 

I did my best to cook for you

Tell me where you put me through

My best ingredient, delicious you

Why leave me now, left me for who?

 
I sprinkled too much pepper, yes I did

But I didn’t mean it, God forbid

There’s no other store that carries you

Where could I buy another you?

 
Without the most important ingredient in my dish,

I’m pretty sure that this wouldn’t be as delish

Succulent, aromatic, luscious, are my preferences

But now you can taste the differences

 
Please come back ingredient of mine

Make my dish one of a kind

Without you the flavors would be bland,

Without you it’ll taste like sand

 
Honey, sweetie, my dearie

Let me cool you down to stop the fiery

Let us simmer down and start to incorporate

I miss you now; I miss you as of late.

 

Currently feeling: melancholy

 

“She’s not princesa anymore.” Who am I kidding?? Why did I write things that I wrote about? Why do I keep on thinking about stuff I did to her and, why are we like this? What’s with the poems and the analogy? What’s with the single subject that almost all my entries focus on? I’m just fooling myself.

 
Emotions talk when the mind stops thinking; I think that’s the case now. I’m just too stressed out at the moment. Shits keep on piling up. And the people that you expect would be there for you are not there when you need them. Nice.

 
If I could only turn back the hands of time, I would keep on going back to the time when all was well; when everything was going smoothly; when everything was a-ok. Wouldn’t you?

 
There’s so much that I want to say, but my emotions wont let me. Why? Argh. I dunno… Everything’s a blur…

 

Currently feeling: shitty

Hiatus-hiatus. Kalokohan. pinapadugo nyo lang ang ilong ng inyong mga mambabasa. Papatingin nyo pa sila sa dictionary e! lol. Ok, sa mga hindi nakakaalam kung ano ang ibig-sabihin ng salitang ‘hiatus’, it is a break of some sort. A time away from something. So hiatus my ass! Just say, “dude, busy lang” haha

 
Pagod na ako sa ‘seryosong’ mga entries ko the past days. Wala na rin akong ingles na natitira sa aking katawan. Ibinuga ko na ang lahat. Sa sunod-sunod kong English entries, dumugo na utak ko pati ang aking pwet. Lolz

 
Mawawala ng sandali si ardeepineda. Ojt ko kasi ngayon. Kaya busy ang mga araw ko. Walang oras para magsulat ng personal shit; walang oras para dumalaw sa mga bahay-bahay. Dahil sa dami ng aking dapat i-document, basahin, gawin, at intindihin, wala na akong oras sumulat ng shits ko. Mabuti na rin siguro yun. Para there’ll be something to keep me preoccupied and not to worry about shit. Kinakain din ng ojt ko ang buong araw ko. Kaya pagod na rin ako paguwi. Pero sa malamang, sa weekends na lang ako susulat (not to mention that I still have Saturday classes. Nice!).

 
You guys know Café Breton? Oo, yun resto para sa crepe at kapehan; French Crepes and Fine Coffee. Yan ang tag-line namin! “Apprentice” ako ng may-ari nun (well, since he’s out of the country for three weeks, ang GM muna ang may hawak saken. Hehe). We have branches at Greenbelt 3, The Podium, Tomas Morato, Pasong Tamo, Mall of Asia, Westgate (in alabang), Paseo de Sta.Rosa, and one in tagaytay. Kung mapapadalaw kayo, baka sakaling magkita tayo. Haha. Ok si Mr.Owner, 8 branches in 8 years. Ayos noh? Gusto namin na ilagay sa utak ng mga tao that crepes aren’t dessert items only, they’re also meals!

 
Masarap dude! Kaya kung maliligaw man kayo sa isa sa mga lugar na nabanggit sa itaas, try nyo kumain sa Café Breton! At kung naka-kain na kayo at merong aspect ng service, food or whatsoever na hindi ka satisfied, sabihan nyo ako. Sasabihin natin yun kay Mr.Owner. hahaha. But I assure you, ok ang food; at mabait ang servers.

 

 

 

P.S.

            Sinong mabait na pwedeng magbigay sa akin ng Apple Mac na notebook? Malaking tulong ito para sa ojt ko! Kahit sobrang belated birthday gift, o sobrang advanced Christmas gift!

Pag babae ang magbibigay, tara, date kita sa Café Breton! Kung saan mo trips na branch! Hehe. Pag lalaki, dude, apir na lang tayo!

 

 
…… *voice from somewhere: “Asa ka ralph!!!!!!”* lol

 

Currently feeling: steady...

 

This could be a long post

 

 

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I got tagged by tani. And as everyone did, I’ll post seven of my favorite songs in my play list now. Not necessarily my life’s soundtrack, but some songs mean something to me. It’s sad though that I only can list seven…

 
1. Quando, Quando, Quando – Michael Buble and Nelly Furtado

            I so remember this day. We were listening to this song in my labs’ iPod. Then out of the blue, I just sang the lyrics to her. I figured that the lyrics apply to me that time. Since then, it’s been ‘our song’.

            Oh, and this was the day that she sat on my lap, to ‘compensate’ for something.

 
2. How deep is your love – originally, by the Bee Gees

            Well, I just love the song. It also reminds me of my labs. Funny thing is that, we both love the same line: “and you may not think that I care for you, but you know down inside that I really do”

            We also both love the Freestyle version of this

 
3. Panalangin- Nyoy Volante version

            I just love Nyoy’s rendition of the APO-original song! And again, my labs and I both love this.

            We still haven’t watched a live Nyoy-performace though… sad. When will my/our dream come true?

 
4. Time will reveal- Boys II Men version

            I heard this version in my labs’ iPod. Loved it at the moment I played it.

 
5. Mahirap magmahal ng syota ng iba – APO hiking society

            Yep. You read the title right! Need it say more?

 
6. Ewan – APO hiking society

            “Mahal kita, mahal kita, hindi ‘to bola… masagot mo lamang sana ako’y nasa langit na…”

 
7. Best of my love – emotions

            Unlike the previous six songs listed above, this is an upbeat, disco-like song. I’m a fan of old songs. I’m not the hip-hop-rocker-dude-type. I don’t like ‘noisy-music’.

            I do not dance. But once you play this song, hell and kabaduyan will break-loose! I could dance the night away with this song! I really love the beat! I usually play this song when I’m driving, taking a bath, or if I’m just plain bored.

 
That’s my seven songs at the moment. Of course, like everyone else, our top choices vary from time-to-time. Satisfied with my list, tani?

 

 
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Hiccups

 
I just hate hiccups! Especially when they assault me right before I sleep!

 
There are a couple of ways to treat hiccups (not to mention they’re free) but then, I think I wouldn’t mind paying for a tablet, or a ointment-like product that could instantly get rid of hiccups!

 
Freakin’ hiccups! Yes, I’m experiencing one at the moment…

 
 
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 "If you say you never had a chance, perhaps you never took a chance." -Howard Schultz

I bought a book the other day. This was the book that inspired Mr.Owner to put up Café Breton – ‘Pour your heart into it’ by Howard Schultz, Chairman & CEO of Starbucks Coffee.

I can’t really say that it’s a ‘good-read’, but it’s quite interesting. After all, 57 out of 340 pages doesn’t summarize the holistic ‘reading-experience’. It doesn’t even summarize the whole book! Well, of course prologues are one-page shits that generally tells you what you are about to unravel.

 
How much is the book you might ask? P745; and nope, it’s only paperback. Funny thing is that educators, role models, and other professionals promote reading books. But then, books aren’t that cheap... You get my point. It could be compared to the movie and the music industry. Original DVD’s and audio CD’s cost a fortune! Well, yes, I’m just exaggerating. But then, they are really expensive! So people tend to buy pirated copies. But, unlike in books, there are no ‘pirated books’. (An opportunity for pirates!!! Tap the market for book-lovers who can’t afford books! Pirate books! Nice!)

 

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I heard the 5:30pm mass in Greenbelt yesterday. I forgot (or I didn’t hear) what the gospel is about… I think it’s about doing something good everyday… anyway; the Priest was making a sermon about a little boy in Italy; a little boy from a poor family who is expecting another angel to join their family. Yes the new kid would bring joy, but it would also mean that they would have another mouth to feed, another body to bathe and clothe. But because of their financial-status, they couldn’t afford feeding another child; they could not afford to raise another child.

 
So, this little boy decided to write a letter to God. He told God their situation and that he needs help. He then tied and attached the letter to a balloon, which he released and sent out to fly above the clouds, hoping that it would reach Heaven and God would eventually read his letter.

 
A few days after the birth of his sibling, a mailman came and delivered a package to them. It was a big box. They opened it and found baby-things: diapers, milk bottles, food, and the like. The little boy then fell into tears and thanked God. His prayers were answered! The letter reached Heaven; God had read his letter.

 
Meanwhile, on a far away town a few days ago, a rich businessman was strolling though the plaza. Then, a balloon landed on his head. Seeing a letter attached to the balloon, he got the envelope and started reading the letter. He got deeply moved by the words of the little boy who wrote the letter, and decided to give a little help to the address indicated in the note.

 
By playing God for a day, the businessman greatly helped the little boy’s family.

 

 
Well, this is not how the Priest conducted his sermon, but this is how I understood the story.

 

 
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It then struck me (the sermon above) that, if I write a letter, or a poem of some sort, and attach it to a balloon, set it free, maybe, God could read my letter.

 
I could write something that emphasizes: “I know princesa is looking for me too, so please, let our paths meet.” Or I could just write a love note of some sort, and let the reader fall in love with my words. I just run the risk of my letter falling into the hands of a guy or even a gay reader! Lolz

 
But if I’m asking too much and it is still not the time, it would be nice if You could give me more strength to endure shits. And if it isn’t too much to ask, “sana lumambot na ang puso ng my labs at hindi na siya tampopot sa akin…” its been (I think) already a month, and still, she’s still ‘bitter’…