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Entries for October, 2006

October 9th, 2006

just one great night

Kindle the senses

Savor the essences

As we bask in daylight

And frolic in the moonlight

 

Longing for your warmth, your touch, your breath

If this doesn’t happen, I’ll regret it ‘till death

Quench my thirst as I satisfy yours

As heat and sweat surface from our pores

 

Caress my body, caress my soul

Cuddle my tummy, tickle my mole

Wrap your arms around me and let us amalgamate

We’ll do this and let fate dictate

 

Unwrap the candy wrapper

Unravel the cadaver

Please soul-seeker

Lay down with the master

 

Twine your limbs upon me

And let your lips speak to me

Roll your tongue until it reaches a detour

Maximize the opportunity; this is a free tour

 

Remember my dear that this would be mutual

I’ll also be doing my part of the ritual

I know that this would be sensual

Yes, this would be corporeal

 

I’ll discover you, and you’ll discover me

Who told you that there should be a fee?

We’ll have this one great night

Relish the moment when I turn off the light

 

Just one great night

Body of might

Just one great night

And I promise that everything will be alright

 

Posted by ardeepineda at 04:54 PM | 135 ang nagparamdam

October 20th, 2006

A lame-senseless entry

 

“Don’t look back unless you intend to go that way” – Marc Holm

 

 “If you say you never had a chance, perhaps you never took a chance.” – Howard Schultz

 

“You can’t control as to what life will slap you with. What you can control is how you would react to situations life slaps you with.” – (I forgot where I read this)

 

 

It’s been a while since my last entry. People were telling me to update. But I can’t. I had shit. My mind wasn’t really functioning well. ‘Got disoriented; confused; perplexed; bewildered. Is that what I would talk about in this entry? No; for I do not want to dwell with past shit. And I’m really not in the mood to talk about what that was…

 
Interesting quotations (the ones I wrote above). I need not say more. And as my prologue stated, I’m still baffled. Mind not working; can’t write anything substantial. And I don’t want to bore you with “what-happened-to-me-the-past-days” entries.

 
I want to thank the people who supported my “one great night” poem. Thanks a bunch! It really meant a lot! I call that my “labor of love”; which I obviously need not explain why.

 

A lame-senseless entry. I just cant write anything right now… mind not working… and all my entries here had inspirations… ‘guess I just don’t have one at the moment.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

** princess jai, mei-mei, & kamote: the month’s ending already! When will we have our ‘kapehan-session’?

 

 

Posted by ardeepineda at 11:01 AM | 78 ang nagparamdam

October 23rd, 2006

one last drama for 'princesa'

 Please give me this one last time to talk about this. One last time to release shit of the same topic. One last time to talk about ‘princesa’…

 Nothing comes easy. And on the contrary, most things vanish in a blink of an eye. So do not be surprised if indeed something/someone else does…

 
 
Here are the lyrics of Faith Hill’s song “if I’m not in love”. I guess, the lyrics say it all…

 

If I'm not in love with you
What is this I'm going through
Tonight

And if my heart is lying then
What should I believe in
Why do I go crazy
Every time I think about you, baby
Why else do I want you like I do
If I'm not in love with you

And if I don't need your touch
Why do I miss you so much
Tonight

If it’s just infatuation then
Why is my heart aching
To hold you forever
Give a part of me I thought I’d never
Give again to someone I could lose
If I'm not in love with you

Why in every fantasy
Do I feel your arms embracing me
Lovers lost in sweet desire
Why in dreams do I surrender
Lying with you baby
Someone help explain this feeling
Someone tell me

If I'm not in love with you
What is this I'm going through
Tonight

And if my heart is lying then what should I believe in
Why do I go crazy
Every time I think about you baby
Why else do I want you like I do
If I'm not in love with you

 

 

I do not believe in ‘goodbyes’, for I know that our paths will meet again… someday… one day… they say that love is sweeter the second-time around. Well, if ever our paths cross again, this would be the 4th or 5th time; ‘guess it’ll be much sweeter, eh?

 
“Tama na. wag ka nang umasa na mangyayari pa ‘yon. Move on.” Can you blame me? She was one of the best things life ever slapped me with. Slap me until it bleeds, I wouldn’t mind. It’s all worth the pain. For after all, I defy the meaning of “unconditional love”. But then, some things must come to an end. But please, be it not our friendship.

 
Dear, I said this a thousand times, and I’m not going to hesitate to say it again, “you’ll always be a princess to me.” And I keep my word.

 
I wouldn’t go for a heart-bleeding drama at the moment. I’ll just be too emotional & shit. All I want to say is that; you’ll always stay in my heart. Never did I give up on you; and I won’t start giving up now. No, I’m not holding on; I’m just being true to my word that I’ll always be here what ever happens. I just miss you. And there’s no doubt that I love you.

 
And God, You’ve just been so good to me the past days. I just would want to say a little “thank You” message here in my post. Thanks God! I know that I have You by my side. I never lost faith; and I never will. I love you God! (aaawwww.....
)

 
Oh, and btw, thanks blog friends! I appreciate the comments and the everyday visits! I love you guys! (I’ll make drama one time about you guys. But not now; now is not the right time for that
)

 

 

And so, my quest to find my ‘princesa’ once again carries on…

 

 

Posted by ardeepineda at 11:21 AM | 78 ang nagparamdam

October 25th, 2006

An ode to former ‘princesa’

 

I miss…

 
I miss the “sun-days”, talking on the phone practically 27/7

We just take time off to sleep and take a bath

You wake me up; but we both fall asleep with our headsets still in our ears

When we literally talk about anything under the sun

Technically we’re together everyday

 
I miss the times when you would greet me with a hug

The times when you text me, “san ka?” ; “punta ka dito”

The times when I ask you why should I do the thing you told me to,

And say, “kasi love mo ako”

 
I miss your ‘labshu’

When you text me “(insert term of endearment here)!”,

Followed by a “wala lang” message

 
… the time you told me, “saan mo kita gusto i-kiss?”

 
…telling you that “you’re the best I ever had”

…telling you that you’re the prettiest girl in the world

 

 
I’ll miss…

 
When you say “tawag ka dito”

When you say “miss mo na ako noh?”

When you make lambing because I got ‘tampopot’

When I make drama to you at night and I’d be all cheesy and shit

When I’m sick and not feeling well, and you tell me, “aaawww… wawa naman (insert term of endearment here)”

When you tell me, “smile ka naman… for me”

When I told you “how sweet it is to be loved by me?”,

And you were like, “need I say more?”

When you know that I just can’t resist you especially if you make ‘pa-cute’

When you cut your hair and told me, “baka hindi na ako ang pretty girl mo kapag nagpa-cut ako ng hair”

When you get ‘tampopot’ if I don’t text you

When you don’t believe me when I tell you, “I don’t love you anymore”; ‘coz you know I still do

When you sing to me

When you tell me, “eto, song mo for me”

Our ‘cake day’…

When you grab my phone and take a thousand pictures of yourself then make it my wallpaper, “wag mo papalitan yan!”

When you ‘seduce’ me

When you always insist that you have an altar in my room; sweet, but irritating

When you got jealous of ‘pretty girl’

When you spray that oh-so-seductive-scent of yours

When we text each other like there’s no tomorrow

 
 

… and a lot of things that I need not talk about anymore… this chapter is already finished. And I am already writing the sequel to that episode. No more turning back. Just treasure the memories, relish the moments, learn, and move on.

 
But then it is a given fact that when ever I see another girl, I still think about you…

Your soft hands…

Those luscious lips…

That angelic voice…

That angelic smile…

That incredible ego of yours…

 
 

Argh! Enough! I already made one last drama! And I’m not going to make drama about you again! I just need to release… bear with me.

 
I know I’ll find ‘princesa’… or maybe, just maybe, I would find my Queen.

 
The show must go on. And so is my journey to find ‘princesa’…

 
And for those who are in doubt that I am indeed ‘moving on’, dear, I’m trying. Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha!

 
I don’t want to talk about this anymore. Let’s just leave this chapter and continue to read on…

 

Posted by ardeepineda at 01:44 PM | 107 ang nagparamdam

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